I once had a conversation with a friend where she told me about someone jokingly saying to her, “You can’t talk,” because she fumbles her words. Upon hearing this, my friend began struggling in this area, taking their words as fact. She became shy and hesitant for a long time until one day she took a stand against that idea and decided to no longer let it hinder her. I was certainly able to relate to this situation as my friend told me this story in response to what I'd just shared with her…
I've had a strained relationship with my mom for at least a decade and had said many times, nonchalantly, that my mom hated me. However, I don’t think I ever REALLY believed it until one day, while speaking to one of my brothers, he said, “… I don’t know why she hates you so much...” BOOM. If I never believed it before, I believed it at that moment. Immediately, it was written in stone, and let me tell you, the destruction an idea like that can cause is something I wouldn't wish on ANYONE.
However, four years later, an opposing thought has finally come to my mind. I was having an oddly quiet day -- normally I’d have music or the TV playing. I was walking through the doorway of my bedroom when it hit me SO hard my knees buckled and I broke down crying right where I stood: “Your mom does not hate you Dana, she just does not know how to love you.” I replayed those words, that moment, over and over in my head all day, getting so emotional each time, feeling such a weight lift from my shoulders. I thanked God repeatedly for speaking to me SO CLEARLY. It felt as though He had been trying to send me that message for a long time and finally had a good shot so He zapped me with it. The best part about it was that I immediately recognized the words as Truth. I became aware of how STUPID the lie was and how it had me trapped. It caused my eyes to be opened and the perspective of my life to be drastically changed.
This brings me to the infamous story of Adam and Eve. Eve KNEW what God had said about eating from the tree of knowledge, but she allowed the serpent to get into her head and ask, “Did God REALLY say that?” Simple as that, all he did was ask one little question and Eve was questioning her understanding. Later, after she shared the fruit with Adam, God came looking for them in the garden:
“… and they heard the sound of the Lord God walking in the garden in the cool of the day, and Adam and his wife hid themselves from the presence of the Lord God. Then the Lord God called to Adam and said to him, ‘Where are you?’ So he said, ‘I heard your voice in the garden, and I was afraid because I was naked; and I hid myself.’ And He said, ‘Who told you that??’…” - Genesis 3:6-11
Who told you you couldn’t speak? Who told you you couldn’t mend your relationships? Who told you you couldn’t start a business? Who told you not to go on that audition or apply for that job? Who told you you couldn’t buy that house? WHO LIED TO YOU?? The enemy loves to see us doubt ourselves. He loves when we don’t realize our full potential. He will pervert our thoughts so we either hesitate or act rashly. We have to make sure we make enough quiet time in our schedules to hear from the One who knows us best and is ready, willing, and able to make good things come to fruition for us. When the Enemy comes in trying to throw us off, we have the power to fight him off with the Word God has given us for each situation. Whatever you do, DON’T be like Eve!!
xoxo, Miss Bee